*SMILES*

I’m really looking forward to the next month-or-so, because there really is so much for me to smile about nowadays, and I love that.

++ Thanksgiving/Black Friday

++ Disneyland for 2 days with Kim and Sean & Colleen <3

++ Super hero/super villain birthday party with Tina

++ Turning 18

- tattoo(s)

- outings with peeps

- buying lotto tickets, “adult stuff” and cigarettes… just because I CAN, LOL

- party hardy!

++ (Possibly, hopefully) going back to the Disney Store for the end of the season

++ Christmas

++ 2009

The last few months of the year are always my favorite. I get to spend plenty of extra time with friends and family, and oh goodness… the holiday food– need I say more?! LOL. Past “events” should have left me ultimately depressed, crushed and heartbroken, but all of this is actually perfect timing. All this good is doing the job and outweighing the bad, by far. I’m surrounded by my friends and… everything seems to be going smoothly for me right now. The few flakes of negativity that remain floating in my mind are surely on their way out at any moment, I’m hoping for it.

The two day Disneyland trip is the icing on the cake, really :3

I’m excited out of my miiiiiiiiind!

UPSIDE DAY

This morning I sort of felt like shit, partially because of the phone talk I had last night, and because I was jut flat-out sleep deprived… because that’s how it’s been lately. Sorry if I was such a downer. Everyone has their off days, right? I brightened up for some weird reason towards the end of second period, and felt better – more or less. [There really is no damn point in being upset over something I can't change, as much as I'd like it to. Like the song goes: While truckin' down the road of life, although all hope seems gone, I just move on. When I can't find a single star to hang my wish upon, I just move on, I move on. I got all the closure and clarity in the world, and that's all that matters, really. I think my (very) newly found glee has left me feeling more ready to be forgiving and civil about it all. Call it a random epiphany, if you will. And... new inspiration, can't forget that.]

Anyways, I was seriously trailing off topic… but like I was saying, today really seemed to lift my spirits, for a number of reasons. I actually got into the musical at school. (Oh yeah, I actually did try out, by the way. I sang That Thing You Do! for my audition song.) I can’t believe I’m at least a little good enought to get in. I must say, I’m proud of myself. High School Musical, here we go! Had lots and lots of LOLs with Victoria and Kim after school. “Will you eat my insides, Catherine?” LOL @ burned potstickers. Mad Libs is about a million times more amusing when you’ve got perverted word choices, in MY opinion. *WINK WINK*

About an hour ago, my mom tells me my sister, Ana’s genius plan of having me & a friend (I pick Kim right off the bat, because it’s just a given) meet up with her and my brother-in-law, Don, and niece, Colleen, and nephew, Sean at Disneyland for TWO DAYS while she and him attend to work-related matters. HELL YEAH. Now, I’m listening to Disney music, getting myself really pumped up. Nothing else gives me such a wonderful feeling the way Disneyland does… that’s just how it is with me. Disneyland is my sweet escape, and it really could not have come at a better time.

The last two-ish months of the year are always my favorite, and this year is no exception. I’ve always got so much to look forward to around this time of the year, and I love that. Twilight at midnight with Victoria and a whole bunch of other people on Thursday, Thanksgiving weekend is next weekend, and the weekend after THAT will be Disneyland, and the weekend after Disneyland will be the first week of winter break! You should all know by now know all the things in store for winter break: 18th birthday (which has a bunch of cool sub-plans/events on its own), I’m going back to the Disney Store (or so I’m told) after I turn 18, and then there’s Christmas… AND New Year’s! Whooooooooo. This is a wonderful time for things to be looking up for me. I’m glad. Lord knows I needed it, and for that I’m very thankful

P.S. Better than Jacob Black.

YOB HUNT [2]

Unemployment is ridiculously frustrating, especially around the holidays. I filled out two applications for two different Starbucks locations, as well as two different applications for AMC 24 (Palm Promenade), and AMC 14 (Plaza Bonita). Game Stop apparently does not want me, so I don’t know whether or not to give up hope on that. I still have the filled out applications to the Las Americas Game Stop, as well as the National City Game Stop. I’d still love to work at a Game Stop… just imagine the discount I’d get on video games… I haven’t really gotten the chance to build my video game collection since I got my Wii. I still ONLY have Resident Evil: Umbrella Chronicles and Resident Evil 4.

All the really good places I want to work at hire at 18… and I’m only a month and a few days away from that. Borders is one of my new dream jobs. The Disney Store says they’ll take me back for the last month of the winter season -after I turn 18, but that’s not going to cut it for me in the next 8 months-or-so, until I go to college… wherever that may be. Sea World would be pretty cool to work at too… but my mom wants me to wait until I’m 18 if I want to work there, so I can trolley it back and forth… getting a car would be wonderful, but wishful thinking at that. (Speaking of, I should actually try studying for my permit test so I can get my damn license. Driving illegally for 2+ years is getting lame.) If I could get a legit job at Sea World with good hours and pay, then I’d definitely take that up. Alas, the waiting period to turn legal.

YOB HUNT

I don’t know why, but I woke up around 5AM and could not go back to sleep. I went back and forth between lying in bed listening to music, to Myspace in the computer room. Had 3 hour-ish phone talk, the longest it’s been in a while, which made me happy, even though most of the conversation was spent talking about Mobsters, lol. & I can’t believe… more or less 5 months.

After phone talk I busted out the white pages in hopes of finding some local places that would hire poor little unemployed, under-aged me. Most of the places I tried were either not hiring, or only hired at age 18 and up. I applied online for Game Crazy in Chula Vista, and when I drove my mom to Mervyn’s I applied on one of the computers at customer services. I didn’t even know they opened a new Game Stop on Saturn, but there it was… calling out to me. I was really psyched too, since the Game Stop on Palm had said they already finished hiring for the holidays. I walked in and talked with one of the employees… her name was Joelyn or something like that. She complimented my Gwen Stefani purse as soon as I walked up to her, lol; then she complimented my earrings, and then my sunglasses. We had small talk about how I got laid off at the Disney Store and stuff, and she gave me an application. She said that I shouldn’t keep my hopes too high or rely on just that store, since they already had a butt-load of applications, but I’m really hoping I get the job. I’d love working in a video game store… it’s hella nerdy, but come on, LOOK AT ME.

I was also thinking about applying at Starbucks, just not the one on Palm, because I’d hate to serve the little pukes I go to school with. AMC is also on my list of places I’d like to attempt applying at. As a last resort, I’ll apply at Levi or Nike, but for now I want to milk out all of my other options, because I want to work somewhere I love.

When I got home, I walked to Luzita’s and bought a California burrito ($4.09) and got an Arizona from Northgate, which was only $0.85(?!?!!!) Awesome. James Franco was there, but I didn’t go to his line since it was way too busy anyways. I weakly dragged myself home in the damn heat, and watched Maury… then I knocked out for 4 hours… a lovely, food coma/sleep deprivation induced nap. It was nice.

(By the way, I can’t get over how good I smell right now… thanks to Herbal Essences Long Term Relationship raspberry shampoo and that new orchid body spray from Bath & Body Works.)