There’s been a bunch of stuff on my mind lately.
I can’t wait until I go back to work, which (hopefully) is soon. Unemployed life is boring and it sucks to be broke. I need to save my money up… for a lot of practical and impractical things. I need to get a steady income rolling.
I feel like shit because I haven’t been to the gym in like… six months. I hate being lazy, for the most part. I love to work out, I just hate being surrounded by disgusting jocks in the weight room at school. I keep telling myself I’m going to get back into the habit; my gut has become slightly larger since the holidays and I can’t stand it. Definitely need to start eating healthy again and get back into old work out habits & commitment.
School is pretty breezy nowadays. I love AP Lit. I love having only 3 classes again. Unscheduled 4th period is a God-send. I even managed to swing a 4.33 GPA. I haven’t done that since freshman year. High school is almost over, I can’t believe it.
I got accepted into SFSU, woot woot-! My mom still wants me to go to community college for two years to get my general studies out of the way. It makes sense, but goddamn. I want to get out of this town. Well, I do and I don’t. I just really need a good dose of adventure & new things. I love meeting new people, and I’m very greatful to have had the opportunity to meet a handful of new people this past couple months. I need more of that. More adventures & more new people.
My writing has been slowly progressing, and that’s better than nothing in my book. I’m making an honest attempt to resurrect The Hot Dog/Cab Incident short story, but I really don’t know where to go from where I left off. I figure once I do something good with that story, then I can advance to Cheese, Chocolate & Grapes.
I’ve been feeling more disconnected from church lately. There really isn’t anything I can do about it. I don’t like the priests, I don’t pay attention during the readings- let alone the sermons, and I still don’t like the music. There isn’t much point in talking to my mom about it, because she’s really stubborn on the subject. I wish there was something I could to to renew my faith in my religion, but I’ve been drawing up blanks when it comes to that.
I’ve been feeling really restless due to lack of a driver’s license. I think if I had my license, I wouldn’t be so damn lazy all the time, and I hate wasting days away doing nothing but nap in bed. I plan on taking my permit test again sometime soon (for the 3rd time). I know. I suck. I’m a horrible test taker, I’m not even kidding. I absolutely HATE taking tests, no matter what. I get nervous, no matter what. It’s ridiculous. I need to get my license soon. I’m most likely going to be stuck driving the ugly janky Mexican van until I get a real car. My brother-in-law says I can have his old Nissan. The only problem is that it’s a stick shift, and I have never even touched a stick shift car. If I go up to San Francisco to visit my sister and stuff during spring break, I plan on driving the car back home with me. Summer is going to be here before I know it and I can’t not be without a car.
My love life… hah. Well, it doesn’t exist. The existance of my non-existant love life is pretty much the story of my life… that makes sense, right? It sucks, as always. I guess it’s better to be in no relationship rather than an unsteady one, right? I could ramble on and on about this, but I shouldn’t. And I won’t. It looks like a friendship got ruined because of a so-called “relationship,” and you have no idea how much that has really bummed me out. It would be pointless for me to ramble on and on about that as well, because no one reads this blog anyways, and… rambling wouldn’t change anything. As much as I wish it would.
to write the day before it was due. Such procrastination hasn’t paid off in so long, and that made 
me feel really happy & confident about my writing. The thesaurus is a God-send, I’m telling you! I could have sworn she was going to use mine as a poor example of what we were NOT supposed to do or something… I wasn’t paying attention at all when she was discussing our grades… I was busy drawing an octopus in my notebook and adding to the list of things I consider to be “annoying as FCUK” (which I started writing in 1st period.) I really do love AP Lit, though. Mrs. Steinberg is hilarious! (Intentionally and unintentionally, mind you.) She says the best that’s what she said lines. Example: during a 
Yeah, I’ve been drawing a lot lately… mostly due to boredom in classes. The other day I was zoning out on a lecture about existentialism because I was (attempting) to draw Audrey Hepburn based on the small thumbnail picture reference I had of her on my cell phone. (Oh, and The Rocket Summer lyrics to All I Have was stuck in my head.) I like that I’m putting the boredom I feel in class to good use. I’ve also been writing a bit here and there. I miss that. I don’t know whether to pick up on The Hot Dog-Cab Incident story (I really need to think up a catchier name for that…) or my work-in-progress novel, Cheese Chocolate & Grapes. I owe Tumblr a lot of credit to all the inspiration I’ve had lately. My mind is reeling.
